Broken thing

Sometimes after a ‘hard’ feeding I look down and see my tortured, broken and tattered nipple.

Poor little thing.

Ko sabar jap ya.. less than 7 months je lagi 😂😂

By the river Piedra i sat down and wept

As a first time mother to a standard 1 student, plus a pre-schooler and a baby, I realized mother's duty is never-ending. Forever and ever after. Inifinity times infinity. It's like when they got married we still gotta take care and hovering over their lives. 

I had lack of sleep since last Sunday because my baby is unwell. 

Every night I have to pack all kids' backpack, sort out Amna's school book according to timetable, sort their clothing, prepare Mateen's milk.

Last night I already broke down and wept. I honestly feel like taking a day off from mommy's duty.

Mateen and I

And I ended up asking my husband for help, and asked him to take over some part of the daily task. DELEGATE is the keyword.

Entertaining my 7 years old girl is also very tiring. I have a 7 years old teenager at home already! Not gonna look forward to the day she actually turns a teenager.

Plus the boyfriend problem. 

I am still feeling pretty much f*ed up from the lack of sleep. But yeah, life has to go on.

Superhuman

When I scanned my house I saw mess everywhere.

How did my mother survived 7 children?

I think she is Superwoman.

While I am a Weakwoman 😮😬🤧

Today’s purchase

Cleansing oil and I have came a long way.

The first cleansing oil I ever purchased was the Shu Uemura cleansing oil. Expensive. It get the things done.

And I tried many other brand as well.

But after I have too many kids too handle (I only have 3 haha) I opted for something simple - cleansing wipes and micellar water.

But i ended up not cleansing my face properly. I wear only light make up, some BB UV cream on daily basis. So normally I just got lazy to even wipes my face with micellar water.

So out of nowhere today I bought this Hada Labo oil. After seeing some instagrammer recommended it. So will i be so religious to use it? Let's wait and see.

My skin has changed from dry and sensitive to oily few months after I delivered baby no 3. Must be the hormone. But it feels kinda weird after 8 years of having a very dry skin suddenly it changes overnite after I had my first period after baby no 3. Berapa banyak after daa.. i experienced jerawat again. Something I don't particularly enjoyed. But having a dry skin is also not very fun.

Let's pray for the porcelain like skin that I have always wanted. 🤪

Love, Q

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Tired.

I feel exceptionally tired today. Probably because i did not get enough sleep last night.

Taip ni pun mata juling-juling dah.

Not gonna whine here. Though there’s a lot of thing to be whine about, but lot of things to be thankful as well.

Life, overall, is not that bad.

2019

Hello.

2019.

I hope you and I will be the best buddy.

You take care of me, I take care of you kind of relationship heh.

XOXO

3rd pregnancy

So I am currently 26 weeks pregnant with our third child.

Trust me when I say getting pregnant at the age of 30s is no fun at all. I feel tired all the time, and I have this condition of laying low placenta, which probably makes me feel even more tired and heavy down there.

I think my belly has grown so big within a week, from not obvious that I am pregnant suddenly now it look like that I am about to due anytime soon.

And I feel the hot pregnancy flush now, like when I am typing this, I am sweating because apparently the air conditioner is not blowing hard enough to cover my needs.

I honestly can't wait to have my long maternity leave - I hope by the time I deliver my baby in May our HR has approved the 3 months maternity leave - if still not approved I wouldn't mind taking a month of unpaid maternity leave.

So lazy lah to work nowadays. Like your mind has focused on only one thing- which is the baby and nothing else matters.

I am now busy planning and preparing for the girls room. The girls are currently still sleeping with us, so it's about time for them to sleep on their own beds and room. Already purchased/ordered the beds and the mattress yesterday, curtain will probably ready by this weekend, wallpaper I'm still searching for a good deal.

Panas hoih. Peluh-peluh taip ni. *Bangun pergi kuatkan ekon.

Sekarang I mengidam Apple Watch dengan wallet LV lah. Ada sesapa nak layankan kemengidaman i tak. hiks